So, here is something I should NEVER EVER DO! Tonight, I went through my old pictures. I just sat crying for a good amount of time for the people who I miss, the people who I love, and the people who really hurt me. I don’t know what prompted me to reminisce, but alas I did.
I am getting ready to begin the next phase of my life and I just feel that there is so much that is not at all how I had planned it out to be, but I guess that’s the bitch of it all. How do you plan life? I just know I made some HUGE blunders this year and I cannot afford to do that anymore. I just feel everyone is moving on with their life and mine is really just getting started.
Granted, I just don’t have any idea what I am going to do in May. I don’t have any idea where I am going to be and I just don’t know who I am going to be with in this next phase. My mother is uprooting herself finally from our home town so I will have no connections there… Everything is just so hazy. Some of the people I have counted on in the past have flown from my life and that is uncomfortable, even unbearable at times as to where I will have to step out of certain situations. I guess I don’t feel completely fine with the unknown. I just wish I had some stability right now… It all seems so crazy… MER!
